I guess i know the answer so no question is required. Tuesday, August 7, 2007
I guess ytd god saw my blog and grant me to sleep easily, till i don't feel like going to school. Imagine u take 1 hour just to reach woodlands mrt. and 10 mins walk to school and other 5 to 10 mins to my class room, AND the same thing back to my house, this room. The feeling kind of suck.
I WANT TO HAVE A CARRR.. I Feel like working to safe money and get one, but how long that takes ? I really want it so badly. I guess i found long-term goal. But other wish/hope/goal starts to fade. which i really sad.
Went K box today. 9+++ which ends up to 17 per person. All guys k box session which we choose all SAD/LOVE song. The more i listen the worst i got. Until now its still repeating in my brain which i can't control.
Having a brain which i can't control really sux.. Thinking of things i dun wan to think about. Unable to think what i really wants. What i did to you .. my brain.
After k box, went k pool. play like shit. Everything i enjoyed in the past, i can't feel it now.. DOTA/TABLE TENNIS/POOL. WTF .. this 3 things i spent more den 80% of the time playing it other then studying. I HATE it now. In the past, i feel so confident when playing pool, even playing with players that i knew i will lose, i still will fight which others say i gong. That was maybe the only thing i dare to fight for. Others dun talk abt it. LAZY <-- LOSER
I lost every confident i got. I have no idea .. where could i find it back. Maybe what i lost can never be found again.
Can't believe its happening. Only thing i guess i left which maybe i enjoy is maybe FISHING.
Sitting on the jetty, wind blowing on my face, Quiet environment. What can you ask for ? maybe i would hope that is a other person just beside me will enjoying what am i enjoying.
I feel so guilty when my mother treat me well, every night i reach home. She will cook for me just to make sure i filled my tummy. Fish, Soup. Everything. Even drinks !
The more she do this i feel worst. But when i am feeling bad. I guess maybe i turning 20 years old i still treated like a baby. I really want to feed myself, lessen burden of theirs.
Nvm, some day, I find myself a wife and have Baby! Then my parents have grandson to bao lao. Wait for my sis to get married dun know take how long-.- (if they see this post, i guess i can't live to blog a other post)
I starting to like children more. So adorable even when they are crying. I was thinking am i so adorable when i was a baby.
I wrote so much today, maybe blogging more could help my RJ. cause my rj is short. Never exceed 200 words, unless i want to write more.
If life was so easy, like hitting on the keyboard, with letters appearing on the screen. and removing or deleting just hitting the ESC and Backspace. How nice ..
Theres so much i want to do, but i just too weak to do.I really need someone to tell me what to do now. Wasting so much time.
