No body is online.. Saturday, August 18, 2007
2.30am ! sat morning ! where is those People that supports to be online and playing dota.. All gone.. Nowadays i feel so.. alone. I see myself and others, not together.. I dun know how to write what i feel.
When amk k pool play pool alone.. i think i lost 50% of the time.. I no longer feel the cue is with me.. So weird holding it.. So hard to hit every ball.. every shot have no confidence.. I wander where my confidence When..
Have you even wonder.. where do confidence come from..? nature or nurture.I really wanna know what i have. No $$, No Car, No LIFE.
3 more lesson left for this semester.. Time pass so fast.. its 2007 now ! and i still remember writing the dates 1997 during primary sch! .. ITS 10 years .. which feel like just next week.. I guess soon very soon . will be 2017 which i may remember what is happening now.10 years later. what will i have, who will i be.. Will i be the someone i want to be. I have idea of how to be the one i want.. BUT i just can't start.. there is barrier blocking ..
Great.. i still can't sleep... Dun feel like playing dota or a3 now.. I notice i am a person that can't stay at home for more den 24 hours.. I feel like swimming so much now.. BUT I SURE no 1 will pei me go.. Peter will say .. its 7th month !! later "they" grab ur legs !!
Even everyone is online... i have no idea what to talk nowadays.. Not that chatterbox anymore.. offline or online.. I sure i am not emo now..
just can't find a word for it..
better go watch tv now.. rather then staring at the computer.. doing the same thing again and again..
I rarly hear my name in school nowadays... lazy , xiao pang.. this shows what? I am not myself.. but i am lazy and xiaopang =)
